You realise if he wants you and you want him, you'd have to be boyfriend eventually. And yet you seem to find that idea difficult too. You're both startlingly awkward.
t was a nightmare, I'm not sharing. And I'll never find out, I guess, though maybe one day this imaginary and intense passion me and Mistoffelee's have will boil over and he'll show me his glorious magic.
He tells amusing puns. Also he once brought me wine, I appreciate people who get me wine.
I want people all the time and I have them and I've not been a boyfriend yet, I don't plan on starting. Doesn't seem like my thing, it's like wearing a suit.
Maybe he wants a commitment and that's why he won't give into you. A lot of people like that, a promise of monogamy. Shocking, I know, but that's how adults date.
Are you sure? You seemed to think he was awfully fond of me earlier. Can't blame him, I'm quite the catch.
He does whine a lot but I could deal. Plus he makes up for it with alcohol and lame puns.
Woah, you're such a lovely person. Why ever would Misto be upset with you? Little baby darling brother, you are such a dumbass sometimes.
So? Aspiring high is normal and he's very capable. If I was ever unable to lead, someone would have to and you'd never do it. I like the idea of Misto being able to be my second command, in a manner of speaking. When he's a little older, of course. He's smart and capable of achieving a lot so why not impress me?
I don't know, he didn't used to but recently he jokingly suggested mutual jacking off. It was a strange moment.
Because life isn't like that. It's not about what you want. You're being exceptionally selfish. If Misto wants you, you're basically telling him you won't commit and you have an expiration date. Love doesn't work like that.
I don't know? Maybe he's just lashing out and using me as an excuse. Remember how dad used to get super snappy at us when things weren't going right? And it wasn't our fault but he did. People project onto others.
Nah, I'm good. I have a failing relationship to cling to bitterly, thanks.
I'm not! I'm making it clear what I want and he very much acted like it's what he wants. If he wants something else, he can go find it somewhere else, but he wants me, so he can be with me when I want to be with him. I can't do commitment and I don't want to either.
What do you mean, 'used to'? He was all snappy with me last week as if I'd drunken all his expensive scotch and ruined the carpet. I mean, I did, but talk about an overreaction.
You give me a headache sometimes. I don't know, talk to him. If you don't want a conventional relationship, explain it to him. You have to make it all clear. And except that not everyone wants that kind of thing.
I'd be snappy at you too. Why the hell were you drinking the good scotch. He saves that for special occasions and balls only. It's a really nice vintage too, I had some last year. Don't waste it!
You know what's up, my love life is about the same as it was the last time we spoke. I'm going nowhere fast and the only person I love is super into the only person I reaaaaally want to kill. Or just destroy a little.
Why would he assume I wanted a conventional relationship? I'm me! Why would anyone fucking want a relationship with me? It's not what anyone wants me for. No one ever did.
I was sad, the scotch was good. There's a bit left, I think? It wasn't a waste, I enjoyed it. Only spilled a little.
A lot of people have liked you for you. And a lot of people have liked you as a fuck buddy too but that's just people. If it helps, Misto does like you. Just talk and explain it to him. You two seriously just need to talk to each other.
And if it fucks up or it doesn't go well, I'll buy you more scotch and we can lament together?
Nope. I wouldn't know how to. Also losing to Macavity doesn't sit well with me. I maybe petty but I have little else so who cares?
I don't know if he likes me. He's not acting like it right now. Wants me, sure, I can always tell when people want me. I don't know. Maybe he's moving on. Might be better.
I don't want scotch.
Wouldn't it be better to stop being petty and having more than pettiness instead?
Well, why did he get upset with you in the first place? Let's try to trace it back, maybe you did something. Actually, knowing you, there's probably no maybe.
What do you want? Or what do you think you want? I'm nearby your place right now, I could bring you lunch?
Maybe. But I'm pretty petty. And I don't overly like dating either. I think I'd just miss Demeter because I'm pathetic and doomed.
It doesn't matter that much, you don't have to change. It's what makes you who you are. I mean yeah, you're a pain in ass but that doesn't mean no one can love you! I love you.
You do, you just asked for them. Read your previous text, genius.
I'm busy anyway, I may just focus on my job for a while and all I have to do for the next ball. I'm okay alone, I'm not too bothered.
Please don't do that again. The paint fumes made you dizzy last time.
Ham and mayonnaise sandwich probably, the store is very limited on options. I did want tuna but alas, it wasn't meant to be.
I am healthy, I just handle things my own way. And no, not really. I don't want to rock the boat with her, she only just cam back to me. So I'm currently trying to count that as a win.
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Date: 2015-04-12 08:12 pm (UTC)I already tried Cassandra's magic and I'm still recovering. And I'm pretty sure that wasn't real magic and more a horrible drunken nightmare.
He's not that bad. Plus he has a nice figure and a good sense of humour.
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Date: 2015-04-12 08:14 pm (UTC)Cassandra is nowhere near Mistoffelees's level. And what did you do with Cassandra, why don't I know this story?
I never noticed his sense of humour, he just rubs against me and swoons sometimes, it's alright as long as he doesn't get in the way.
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Date: 2015-04-12 08:21 pm (UTC)t was a nightmare, I'm not sharing. And I'll never find out, I guess, though maybe one day this imaginary and intense passion me and Mistoffelee's have will boil over and he'll show me his glorious magic.
He tells amusing puns. Also he once brought me wine, I appreciate people who get me wine.
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Date: 2015-04-12 08:25 pm (UTC)Oh, shut up. He's crazy for me.
He just whines a lot, I'd prefer wine.
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Date: 2015-04-12 08:29 pm (UTC)Are you sure? You seemed to think he was awfully fond of me earlier. Can't blame him, I'm quite the catch.
He does whine a lot but I could deal. Plus he makes up for it with alcohol and lame puns.
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Date: 2015-04-12 08:32 pm (UTC)He just wants to impress you, because you play at being all important and he likes centre stage.
I'm guessing he spends less time coming on to you. It gets bothersome, getting groped.
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Date: 2015-04-12 08:39 pm (UTC)So? Aspiring high is normal and he's very capable. If I was ever unable to lead, someone would have to and you'd never do it. I like the idea of Misto being able to be my second command, in a manner of speaking. When he's a little older, of course. He's smart and capable of achieving a lot so why not impress me?
I don't know, he didn't used to but recently he jokingly suggested mutual jacking off. It was a strange moment.
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Date: 2015-04-12 08:45 pm (UTC)You should be impressed by him, he's amazing in every conceivable way. But why does impressing you make him be difficult about things with me?
Yeah, well, maybe you should do it, get him off me. I'm not interested.
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Date: 2015-04-12 08:49 pm (UTC)I don't know? Maybe he's just lashing out and using me as an excuse. Remember how dad used to get super snappy at us when things weren't going right? And it wasn't our fault but he did. People project onto others.
Nah, I'm good. I have a failing relationship to cling to bitterly, thanks.
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Date: 2015-04-12 08:53 pm (UTC)What do you mean, 'used to'? He was all snappy with me last week as if I'd drunken all his expensive scotch and ruined the carpet. I mean, I did, but talk about an overreaction.
What? What's up?
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Date: 2015-04-12 08:59 pm (UTC)I'd be snappy at you too. Why the hell were you drinking the good scotch. He saves that for special occasions and balls only. It's a really nice vintage too, I had some last year. Don't waste it!
You know what's up, my love life is about the same as it was the last time we spoke. I'm going nowhere fast and the only person I love is super into the only person I reaaaaally want to kill. Or just destroy a little.
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Date: 2015-04-12 09:05 pm (UTC)I was sad, the scotch was good. There's a bit left, I think? It wasn't a waste, I enjoyed it. Only spilled a little.
Have you considered ending things with her?
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Date: 2015-04-12 09:09 pm (UTC)And if it fucks up or it doesn't go well, I'll buy you more scotch and we can lament together?
Nope. I wouldn't know how to. Also losing to Macavity doesn't sit well with me. I maybe petty but I have little else so who cares?
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Date: 2015-04-12 09:18 pm (UTC)I don't want scotch.
Wouldn't it be better to stop being petty and having more than pettiness instead?
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Date: 2015-04-12 09:20 pm (UTC)What do you want? Or what do you think you want? I'm nearby your place right now, I could bring you lunch?
Maybe. But I'm pretty petty. And I don't overly like dating either. I think I'd just miss Demeter because I'm pathetic and doomed.
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Date: 2015-04-12 09:35 pm (UTC)I want nothing. Oh, and lemons.
You don't have to be pathetic and doomed though. You're choosing to be. You deserve better.
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Date: 2015-04-12 11:56 pm (UTC)Lemons? Fine. Okay. One bag of lemons for dinner.
Maybe, I don't know. If I deserved better, I'd have had better by now. Part of me feels like I deserve Demeter. I basically enable her shit.
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Date: 2015-04-13 12:00 am (UTC)Ew, who wants lemons?
You deserve better because you're a good guy. You are just not demanding better, there's a difference.
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Date: 2015-04-13 12:03 am (UTC)You do, you just asked for them. Read your previous text, genius.
I'm busy anyway, I may just focus on my job for a while and all I have to do for the next ball. I'm okay alone, I'm not too bothered.
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Date: 2015-04-13 12:06 am (UTC)Lemons are good in drinks.
I'm bothered. Be bothered with me!
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Date: 2015-04-13 12:08 am (UTC)I'll bring you some food options, just pick one.
I'll bother when my work has evened out and my brother is happier.
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Date: 2015-04-13 12:10 am (UTC)Nothing is good too. I'm over wanting things.
I'm always pretty happy, you're never all that happy. Seems pretty obvious who you should focus on.
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Date: 2015-04-13 12:13 am (UTC)Well I want lunch and I'm near your house so deal with it, you're having things.
I'm happy when you're happy. And I'm always happier not thinking about my own life. I can negate my problems for others.
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Date: 2015-04-13 12:16 am (UTC)Maybe. What are you having?
That sounds very healthy, you dickweed. Come on. Did you at least talk to Demeter about it all? I know she cares for you in her own way.
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Date: 2015-04-13 12:18 am (UTC)Ham and mayonnaise sandwich probably, the store is very limited on options. I did want tuna but alas, it wasn't meant to be.
I am healthy, I just handle things my own way. And no, not really. I don't want to rock the boat with her, she only just cam back to me. So I'm currently trying to count that as a win.